;; i didnt want it to end this way

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

Sunday, March 05, 2006

hahah i had a really weird dream ytd
but its quite interesting
haha its about titantic
the ending was a bit unlike the actual movie though

instead of jack dying and rose living on
rose almost froze in the icy water whereas jack was trying to save her
she had this really bad injury on her chest area, quite disgusting :S
anyway she was saved by jack in the end
then we were living their life happily
i remember the last scene of them was they and their grp of kids going into the car, planning to go for an outing hahah

i was thinking about this in my dream
if jack hadn died in the movie, would their love be so everlasting and strong
even if they lived, would they be happy?

love isnt about being with the person you love
but taking in comfort that no matter where the person you love may be,
you wish he or she would be living life happy.

even if the person giving him or her the joy wasnt you
the knowledge that he or she is safe in someone else's hands comforts you
and you are happy (:

hahaha. that is what the dream taught me
heh. anyway today i went szuans hse early in the morning to swim
her bro and her are violent
and her hse is scary her table almost murdered me
i was looking at the pop up book and the table behind fell on me!
bahhh pain hahaha

then we went to peggys nice condo to learn line dancing
so far okay haha
her condo is prettypretty pretty!
we were saying we shld all go there to swim everyweek
beehoon was ncie too
discussed bout the parade during prom
its going t be fun ! (:
and we promised that we will all not sleep at night to talk!
heh

after dance, szuan and me walked t bus stop oh ya, just now at the busstop when we came
there was this insance les partners
they were dancing tango in the middle of the road the cars were like all horning at them
then after that they still went to hug the bulletin board
madness
ive been wondering why pple turn les, then i went on to think about why gays become gays too

haahaha szuan and me went down to her pool side to study
talked bout some stuff (:
looked at the kids playing by the pool side reminded me of the past
how cousins and friends used to play in the pool
and jumped in the pool with ny uniform hiding in the jacuzzi corner of my pool hoping the guard wouldn see us heh.. playing ball next to the pool, doing crazy stuff i dont think id have a chance to do again.
bahhh i wana go back..

i shall put my nice composition of lyrics here if i have the time (:

read thru all my old letters from friends
feels good looking back at teh happy and sad moments we all shared together
brings back so much wonderful memories
i wanna keep all this with me,

forever

;; right from the beginning